This week, I played the flute on our monthly Youth XP. It's some kind of fellowship for teenagers (high school - college) in our church. I was tasked to play along with another flautist. But she kind of ditched me.
I was left solo and confused especially when the keys are the Key of F, B, Eb, and Ab. It was difficult for me because I stopped having lessons a year ago. (actually, I only had lessons for 1 month) So I went on, disappointed and inexperienced. There were like 7 songs to play and we only have 1 day to practice. But for God, I practised, eager to play even without proper preparation. I even invited my friend to go and watch my performance.
On the day of our performance, my other friend (who plays the violin with us) was still waiting for her violin when we were signalled to enter the stage. I'm only confident when she's beside. When the piano started, my friend's sister (who also plays the violin with us) is supposed to play the introduction with my friend. But sadly, she wasn't there. Her sister told me through eye signal that I would play the introduction together with her. But I was afraid because the microphone was sensitive and I might miss a note. So she played the introduction solo, hands shaking and nervous. I'm so sorry.
When the first 5 songs were finished, (with me blowing nervously and all you could hear was *spurt *spurt *spurt, and my hands were chilled to the bone, they couldn't even move, my feet were shaking too) I went down and sat with my friend. I asked her about my performance. She said that she couldn't hear what I was playing. And with that, I was satisfied.
It's time to get back on stage, and have my friend on the violin play with me. I was confident, and to my surprise, I made minimal and minor mistakes. The song went well. Thank God.
NEW THINGS I WANT TO TRY THIS SUMMER:
I want to have art summer classes. I think my skills are degrading and deflating. XD So. . . I really want to improve and pursue my artistic dreams.
And since I'm having art summer classes, I want to try watercolour. I've always wanted to go painting. But in my previous art summer class, (back when I was in grade 4) we used acrylic. And I kind of quitted half-way because I don't want to learn sculpture. And the place creep me out. (MUSEO DE ILOILO) It had skeletons with golden eye patches and real, preserved heads with jello eyes. -_-" I never want to step inside of it again.
I also want to continue studying and improving my flute. That's because my teacher is nowhere to be found. *sigh. I wonder if should quit music.
I kind of want to go back to my violin too. I had violin lessons when I was in grade 4, because I don't like going out of the house during Saturdays, and my lessons are getting difficult because I don't know how to read notes, (but right now I can read notes) I QUIT. aaaah. I know. It's kind of my fault too.
That's all. I gotta go.